"I Had A Bunch Of Bad Thoughts": xQc Talks About Mental Health Struggles Leading Up To Relationship Drama

xQc has been having a tough time lately. With all the personal drama he has been dealing with, the popular streamer recently opened up about how this affected his mental health.

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xQc opens up about mental health struggles | © xQc

Félix "xQc" Lengyel is currently back at the top of Twitch, boasting tens-of thousands of viewers every day. It's not all rainbows and sunshine, though, as the Canadian streamer recently opened up about his mental health struggles he faced during the last year or so.

xQc is a popular Twitch streamer known for his energetic and unpredictable content. With an often chaotic personality, he engages his audience through a variety of games, ranging from competitive titles like Overwatch to casual playthroughs.

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X is well known for his incredibly marathon-streams that have made him one of the most active channels on Twitch, but recently the 27-year-old has been dealing with a lot of issues.

xQc Details Concerning Mental Health Issues

On June 5 the popular streamer was doing a Q&A with his chat, when he decided to “give them a lot of answers about a lot of questions you have.”

He then continued to describe "why this era sucked and how it all began”, probably referencing his dramatic break-up with his former partner Adept.

I had a bunch of sleep problems, a bunch of uncertainty, [...] I had a bunch of bad thoughts, things kept happening that were really bad and scary. I felt like I wasn’t going to live very long. My goal was to make some money and leave some money for people around me, before checking out.

This sounds pretty concerning, and he should definitely get therapy if he still thinks that way! He doesn't stop there, though, as he continues to explain.

And then I went and I got people to organize everything, get my papers in order and get a will. And then they start asking questions like how much money you have, where you do want it to go. I answered truthfully, one of them was like: what’s your status? Single, you know. If I die, my will go to my family.

It is crazy to see, that X was pretty much planning for his eventual death in his mid-twenties, trying to manage his will and all...

Even worse, though, is that looking at how this was just “how it all began”, this might be how his crazy break-up with Adept started. He doesn't mention any names, but it would make a lot of sense, considering his following explanation.

All of this kind of matches the initial reason he gave for their break-up, being related to his family and all. It also makes a lot of sense that, as he mentions how what happened afterward made him “lose trust in everybody.”

Maybe X will confirm this once the trial is over, and he is legally allowed to talk about what happened, but so far all we have is theories…

If you are suffering from mental health issues and want to get help, information, and support is always available at the 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline!

Robert Bachhuber

As a master graduate of sociology who wrote his thesis about Twitch, Robert knows a fair share about streaming. Adding to that, he loves binge-watching TV shows, so he got entertainment covered....